The other day I was having a frustrating time trying to find something to wear. My hubs wanted to take me out to dinner and I stood looking at my closet full of clothes and thinking "I hate every single item of clothing I own" I even had that as my Facebook status. Of course I got comments on it and one of my cousins wife's told me about another self help book called Dressing your truth, my sister had told me about it days before as well as one called Its just my nature, so it looks as if I am falling into a self help book marathon.
I have already purchased them both on my Kindle and will be reading them as soon as I am finished with Skinny Thinking.
As I have been reading Skinny Thinking, I am answering the questions in my head and already implementing some of the tools of the book. Today I went to eat the rest of my sons half eaten breakfast, and thought, "Why are you going to eat this? You are not hungry. Why do you want it?" and the answer was, I didn't want it to go to waste. So, I opted not to eat it and I put it the garbage. Yes, I HATE wasting food. I hate buying food. I especially HATE leftovers, so, I often finish Patrick's food which leads to obvious over eating. So, that has stopped as of today. If he doesn't finish it, it goes in the fridge, if he doesn't finish it later, it goes in the garbage. The End.
So as I am reading this book, the Author started by talking about her binge problems, which I have already opened up about, and then she talked about how growing up, her mom was thin, she didn't remember her really eating a lot, and she would never partake in the treats and snacks that so often she fed to her kids. It made me think of my sweet grandma. She gets so much pleasure by feeding other people, living vicariously through their eating, and eating very little of it herself. The Authors mom did the same. In my family, when we get together, there is food, A LOT, of food. We eat often because we feel it truly offends my grandmother if we don't. Those traditions have transferred into my moms habits as well. We get together for Easter, and there is food and A LOT of it. We get together for Christmas, there is again SO MUCH FOOD. And obviously we partake in the binge of the holiday.
I find it to be very aggravating.
I was so hurt when Tripp brought to my attention my own FP. I think that it hurt me so badly because I knew my own FP. I knew that the way I was raised, my family habits, my family genes can lead to people having weight issues. No one wants their own worst fears being brought to their attention.
I do not blame Tripp for his fears and concerns,and it was not until today that I realized why it hurt me so badly.
My goal is to raise my kids with better habits and break the trend.
I am tired of living my life hating my body, hating the clothes that cover it, not because I have ugly clothes, because I do not. I shop like there is no tomorrow sometimes and I wear things once or twice and then never again. Not because of the clothes. BUT because of my body.
Today, I cheated and decided to start my running again. I will follow the doctors orders and only start with 10 min every other day and so on until I am built back up. I have not had pain for a few weeks now, and I just cant put it off another 2 weeks.
I followed 10 min run with 10 min of Kettle Ball and then 30 min of Pilates.
I am feeling good. On a side note, on day 14 of Arbonne you have to start drinking a colon cleanse drink for 7 days. Today I started it. It tastes like Acia berry juice. Not good, not bad. We shall see how it works. Anyone who knows me knows how I will hate this week. HaHa. Whateves.
Monday, April 15, 2013
Friday, April 12, 2013
CUCUMBERS AND SALSA
At the coming to the end of almost 2 weeks of trying to eat clean, there are a few things I have learned.
Eating clean is easy.
I was starving the first 4 days.
I have trigger foods.
TRIGGER FOODS. TRIGGER FOODS. TRIGGER FOODS.....
(THAT IS SUPPOSED TO BE AN ECHO?)(maybe I am dreaming of trigger foods...)
Trigger foods for me are foods that create my binge frenzy where I never feel satisfied with a serving. And... then proceeds the guilt, the anger, and the horrible feeling I get that I talked about in my last post.
One of my favorite foods in the entire world is Chips and Salsa. It is my absolute comfort food.
In my clean eating cleanse I am doing, you are required to drink protein shakes, a really nasty pro biotic, and a really good no sugar low cal. energy drink called a fizz stick (which are delish), and cut out refined sugars, gluten, and milk products. Focus on eating fresh foods, and whole grains (like brown rice).
Back to trigger foods, I decided I would have SOME chips and salsa, I had corn tortilla chips totally gluten free and I had some really fresh yummy salsa, the best comes from Sam's Club and I love it. It is uber garlicy and It is so good on fish, one of my new favorite meals. Anyways, when I say SOME I had the intention of eating the 7 chips that are called A SERVING... well, those 7 chips became 14, and before I knew it, I really don't know how much I ended up eating. The next morning I was swollen in my hands and my feet, I had eaten so much sodium that my body could not flush it out.
So, the next day around my snack time I decided to try something I had done before on my 2nd go around with WW, Cucumbers and Salsa. I had forgotten how much I loved it! It satisfied way better than chips and salsa, low sodium, and low low calories. It is a 0 point snack if you are following WW and it is a clean snack as well. It satisfied my crunch need, my salsa need and I really needed less. It was completely guilt free and I felt amazing for making such a change.
So the conclusion of my rambling... I know that there are healthier alternatives to my favorite comfort foods, ones that wont trigger my binge cravings, and ones that will leave me feeling lighter and better then feeling heavy and guilty.
Cucumbers and Salsa.
I have been following the Arbonne cleanse fairly close, and yes I have cheated, at times really bad. But I am focusing on the small changes I have made. Cucumbers and Salsa. And for this fast food junky, I have had 0 fast food in 2 weeks, which is really great. I have packed lunches for work all but 1 day and on that day, I went to Whole Foods and discovered they have a terrific salad bar, and they even have these fresh made salads in their deli that are delish. I had never really been in there before. It is kind of expensive but my heath is worth it.
On a side note, My sweet sister-in-law Sara gave me a kindle link for a book I am really excited to read called Skinny Thinking, I got it for .99 cents, what a bargain. Thanks Sara!
So... STATS
I have been weighing myself everyday, which I don't normally do because it proves to be frustrating and discouraging. But, I have actually liked seeing how eating my weight in chips and salsa really does effect my weight in the morning, and seeing how Cucumbers and Salsa really does effect my weight in the morning.
I wont continue to be weighing myself everyday after the 30 days is up, but I am going to continue eating clean. I feel fantastic.
So here it is.
Day 12 and I am down about 7 pounds. Not bad for the cheating little crazy that I am. And also, makes me want to do better. If I had followed it 100 percent. I could be down as much as 12 pounds. But I will not complain. In another week I will be down another 5 pounds. Just you wait.
Eating clean is easy.
I was starving the first 4 days.
I have trigger foods.
TRIGGER FOODS. TRIGGER FOODS. TRIGGER FOODS.....
(THAT IS SUPPOSED TO BE AN ECHO?)(maybe I am dreaming of trigger foods...)
Trigger foods for me are foods that create my binge frenzy where I never feel satisfied with a serving. And... then proceeds the guilt, the anger, and the horrible feeling I get that I talked about in my last post.
One of my favorite foods in the entire world is Chips and Salsa. It is my absolute comfort food.
In my clean eating cleanse I am doing, you are required to drink protein shakes, a really nasty pro biotic, and a really good no sugar low cal. energy drink called a fizz stick (which are delish), and cut out refined sugars, gluten, and milk products. Focus on eating fresh foods, and whole grains (like brown rice).
Back to trigger foods, I decided I would have SOME chips and salsa, I had corn tortilla chips totally gluten free and I had some really fresh yummy salsa, the best comes from Sam's Club and I love it. It is uber garlicy and It is so good on fish, one of my new favorite meals. Anyways, when I say SOME I had the intention of eating the 7 chips that are called A SERVING... well, those 7 chips became 14, and before I knew it, I really don't know how much I ended up eating. The next morning I was swollen in my hands and my feet, I had eaten so much sodium that my body could not flush it out.
So, the next day around my snack time I decided to try something I had done before on my 2nd go around with WW, Cucumbers and Salsa. I had forgotten how much I loved it! It satisfied way better than chips and salsa, low sodium, and low low calories. It is a 0 point snack if you are following WW and it is a clean snack as well. It satisfied my crunch need, my salsa need and I really needed less. It was completely guilt free and I felt amazing for making such a change.
So the conclusion of my rambling... I know that there are healthier alternatives to my favorite comfort foods, ones that wont trigger my binge cravings, and ones that will leave me feeling lighter and better then feeling heavy and guilty.
Cucumbers and Salsa.
I have been following the Arbonne cleanse fairly close, and yes I have cheated, at times really bad. But I am focusing on the small changes I have made. Cucumbers and Salsa. And for this fast food junky, I have had 0 fast food in 2 weeks, which is really great. I have packed lunches for work all but 1 day and on that day, I went to Whole Foods and discovered they have a terrific salad bar, and they even have these fresh made salads in their deli that are delish. I had never really been in there before. It is kind of expensive but my heath is worth it.
On a side note, My sweet sister-in-law Sara gave me a kindle link for a book I am really excited to read called Skinny Thinking, I got it for .99 cents, what a bargain. Thanks Sara!
So... STATS
I have been weighing myself everyday, which I don't normally do because it proves to be frustrating and discouraging. But, I have actually liked seeing how eating my weight in chips and salsa really does effect my weight in the morning, and seeing how Cucumbers and Salsa really does effect my weight in the morning.
I wont continue to be weighing myself everyday after the 30 days is up, but I am going to continue eating clean. I feel fantastic.
So here it is.
Day 12 and I am down about 7 pounds. Not bad for the cheating little crazy that I am. And also, makes me want to do better. If I had followed it 100 percent. I could be down as much as 12 pounds. But I will not complain. In another week I will be down another 5 pounds. Just you wait.
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